Holy cow it’s easy to let this blog fall way down on the list of to do’s.
A lot has happened since I posted on here last… most importantly, we welcomed a new baby girl into our family. Introducing Paige Maree Collins.
It has been an interesting 10 weeks since Paige joined the family, including many cuddles, lots of late night feeds, two smitten brothers who kiss her every chance they get, a 6 night stay in hospital with bronchilitis and more smiles than I can count.
Mentally I have been doing okay. I have my good days and I certainly have my bad days, mostly dictated by how many hours of sleep I get the night before. Paige is a great sleeper, but her and Ethan are already teaming up and both tend to do overnight wake ups on the same night, which generally results in me struggling!
Her stay in hospital was rough and I really struggled during that time. Seeing her with a feeding tube and oxygen tubes (at only 5 weeks old) broke my heart especially after having to watch my husband in a similar position just last year. But we had amazing nurses and doctors and she made a great recovery and rewarded us with this massive smile (her first real smile) on her first night home from hospital.
I am currently seeing a counselor through a local centre that I went to after I had Ethan and it is certainly helping. I am trying to get into a routine of working out, which was recommended by my counselor, and I definitely do notice the difference on the days when I get to do something for myself, even if it’s just a 20 minute walk with the dog.
This morning I did a boot camp session with a fellow Mum friend and I know my muscles are going to dislike me later, but man I feel good to be doing something positive for myself. Paige was an angel and slept in the pram the whole time… (thankfully!).
As much as crochet helps me mentally, it doesn’t help my body so much… so I have to be careful to make sure I am prioritizing both activities. The other thing I am doing which seems to be helping is getting back into my business activities. As some of you know, I am working at building up my crochet business and I also have an Arbonne Network Marketing business.
Having something to do aside from being Mummy helps give me a sense of worth. I know this is different for everyone but I need to have something to do and be responsible for that isn’t just my kids. Don’t get me wrong, I love them and always wanted to be a Mum, but I seriously struggled loosing my job and the sense of responsibility and contribution that came along with switching to being a stay at home Mum. Some days I am unable to do any work at all, and that’s ok. The nature of my businesses are that I can do it on my terms. And I am still working out what life with 3 kids looks like. I’ve managed to get out of the house once with all 3 by myself… and you should know it took a LOT of mental cheer leading to tell myself I was capable of it and I wouldn’t loose one of them!
This too shall pass.
I am getting there…. slowly. I know what it feels like when my mood drops or the anxiety starts to take control of me, and I am slowly working through the ways to ease that off or avoid it all together. But I know I am not alone. I have an amazing husband who does everything in his power to make sure I am okay. We have 2 super supportive families who are there for us whenever we need them. And I have some fantastic friends I can call on when I need to vent or cry or feel like giving the kids away.
One thing I do know… is that my family is complete. I always wanted 4 kids… but I can confidently say that I am happy with my 3. Two wild, adventurous, crazy boys who are head over heels in love with their baby sister. And one gorgeous cheeky yet calm girl. The baby our family needed after the last two years of life.
She took us by surprise but she is the baby we needed to heal from everything we struggled with in the past two years.
I hope you are all well and happy in your lives, and I hope to be able to make more time for my blog and my crochet business in the coming months. So if you’re interested in seeing what the future holds for Kate Made It, please subscribe to receive email updates from time to time.